Why, oh Why?


A bruised reed He will not break,
And smoking flax He will not quench;
He will bring forth justice for truth.  Isaiah 42:3 (+ Matthew 12:20)

He will tend His flock like a shepherd;
He will gather the lambs in His arms;
He will carry them in His bosom,
and gently lead those that are with young.  Isaiah 40:11

He gives power to the faint,
and to him who has no might he increases strength.  Isaiah 40:21

Jesus cares about me. He loves me more than I can even fathom.  He does not break me.  He gathers me into His arms.  He leads me into the way I should go.  He gives me strength and power.  

YET…I doubt…I worry…I fear…I mistrust.  WHY?  Why do I doubt Him?  Why do I question whether He will provide for me?  Why do I lack the trust to know that He is always…ALWAYS…with me?  WHY?  

As a father shows compassion to his children,
so the LORD shows compassion to those who fear Him.  Psalm 103:13

He heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds.  Psalm 147:3

“For I will satisfy the weary soul, and every languishing soul I will replenish.”  Jeremiah 31:25

He heals me and rains compassion upon me.  He refreshes me. 

Over and over again, the Bible tells me that I can place my trust in Him completely.  I do not need to feel the scars and holes in His body to know Who He is.  I know Jesus gave His all as the most beautiful Gift possible for me, for us all and each.  I know this, yet I doubt. 

I fall by the wayside and wonder why I feel so alone.  Yet, I am not.  I am held in the Savior’s arms and know that He will never leave me nor forsake me.  He will not drop me on my head or tail. 

I will seek the lost, and I will bring back the strayed, and I will bind up the injured, and I will strengthen the weak, and the fat and the strong I will destroy.  I will feed them in justice.  Ezekiel 34:16

“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”  Matthew 11:28

He gives me rest.  He gives me justice.  He carries my heavy burdens and looks for me when I am lost.  So much Jesus does for me.  He cares for me. 

I seek Your forgiveness, LORD, for my doubt, my lack of trust, my faithless spine.  I am sorry, my LORD.  I have fed myself so much self-doubt that I forget just Whose I am.  I have allowed my ears to hear lies about myself.  I shout to satan to get behind me and he does because You are with me.  I want to trust You in Your care for me.  Precious Jesus, I love You.  May my walk be along the straight and narrow pathway with You…and You alone.   Jesus, You prayed for Simon Peter and You have given the Holy Spirit to be my Intercessor.  He knows the prayers I want to utter but cannot.  He prays for me. 

“Simon, Simon, behold, Satan demanded to have you, that he might sift you like wheat, but I have prayed for you that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned again, strengthen your brothers.”  Luke 22:31-32

I read the many ways that God cares for me, all of the time, in so many ways, in every kind of way.  Where do I read this?  In His Word.  The Word of God is the pivotal place from which I know.  I KNOW that He loves me and cares for me because He tells me through His Word.  I KNOW His care because I feel it in my heart.  I can see it too.  I KNOW it in my head.  His Truth speaks volumes to me when I doubt…when I fall…when I mistrust…when I feel alone. 

All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness; so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work.  2 Timothy 3:16-17

And we also thank God constantly for this, that when you received the Word of God, which you heard from us, you accepted it not as the word of men but as what it really is, the Word of God, which is at work in you believers.  1 Thessalonians 2:13

LORD, I thank You for loving me so perfectly.  I want the hard places in me to soften and know that You are LORD.  That this body of mine is Yours and made perfectly.  That this mind was woven by Your hands in my mother’s womb and continues to function well.  That this heart is knit with the Love of Your heart for You loved me first.  That trust, faith, love, hope all come from You.  I believe.  I truly do know that just in this one heartfelt acknowledgment…belief in You…I am so filled with all of Your gifts.  Can I trust and walk in faith?  Can I love without conditions and be loved without conditions?  Can I be filled with hope?

“It is the LORD who goes before you.  He will be with you; He will not leave you or forsake you.  Do not fear or be dismayed.”  Deuteronomy 31:8

You are my Hope, my Peace, my Love.  May the hard and broken parts of me open up to You for Your loving touch, for Your gentle and tough molding so that I know that I am the one You created me to be.  I want to be a gift to those I encounter as You were and are for me.  For me!  You love me and care for me.  The Bible tells me so.  Thank You.  No more whys, LORD.  I believe and I trust in You.  In the loving Name of Jesus, I pray.  Amen.  


25 thoughts on “Why, oh Why?

  1. “Why do I doubt Him? Why do I question whether He will provide for me?” Why, Why, Why? It’s been almost three months since our move and I am still in the middle of waiting for a house. The past couple of weeks I’ve begun to feel my faith slip. This is an eye opener for me and I’m getting on my knees to ask for forgiveness and put my full trust in the Lord. Thank you, Linda for this reminder and encouragement. Thanks for sharing with Thankful Thursdays.


    • Oh, Lori, it is the way we can be, because we are human. But God is faithful and wants us to trust and pray and love and know that He is Who He says He is. I am talking to myself too! In prayer for you, sweet friend.


  2. So much truth and hope here, Linda. Beautiful verses and a beautifully authentic reminder of where we go in those moments. You know, I get so frustrated with myself for still having those moments and for allowing untruths to fill my mind at times. However, I was recently thinking, that if we never fell. If we always filled our minds with His truth, we would take Him for granted and begin believing we didn’t need Him. It’s so silly, but yet, it’s in those seasons of ease and peace that we forget how much we DO need Him! It is simply never possible for us to attach words like “always and never” to ourselves because we are incapable of perfection. God is the only Always and the only Never ♥ Thanks for making me think deep today, friend! And for reminding me of where I need to continually work to place my thoughts and my hope.
    Blessings and smiles,


  3. Linda, I wonder why I need to be reminded so many times. I’m glad He always renews me when I go to Him. Thanks for so many great words of encouragement.


  4. I wish I never doubted God’s love for me and His care in making me just the way I am. I loved your prayer..especially the part about how my mind was “woven by God” because often times I’m hard on myself for forgetting names or how I know somebody when they know me by name.


  5. Linda, I love this beautiful, intimate post and closing prayer…I’m praying it with you…The Message translation of Matthew 11:28-30 is so good…”Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.” I am especially encouraged by the words, “unforced rhythms of grace”…which always take me back to those lyrics in Darrell Evans’ song, “Your Love Is Extravagant” …”Your love is extravagant…Your friendship intimate…I find I’m moving to the rhythms of Your grace…Your fragrance is intoxicating in our secret place..”.
    and these Scriptures which have encouraged me to trust, hope…

    We are saved by trusting. And trusting means looking forward to getting something we don’t yet have—for a man who already has something doesn’t need to hope and trust that he will get it. But if we must keep trusting God for something that hasn’t happened yet, it teaches us to wait patiently and confidently. —Romans 8:24-25 The Living Bible

    But these things I plan won’t happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, do not despair, for these things will surely come to pass. Just be patient! They will not be overdue a single day.—Habakkuk 2:3 The Living Bible

    many blessings to you!


  6. Such comforting truth here, Linda. I was blessed by this today! All uplifting and worthy of reading aloud….like the prayers were my own. Thanks for sharing your heart and God’s word with us. Your #TellHisStory neighbor~


  7. I’m so enriched by your beautiful post today breathing scripture into my weary heart and soul..I’ve had a week of doubt that crept in..yearning, yearning..I’m still yearning to be filled with the love of God who washes away fears, who turns these kinds of words inside out and upside down until we find Him again, “I have fed myself so much self-doubt that I forget just Whose I am. I have allowed my ears to hear lies about myself. ” Such a gorgeous post! I’m glad to visit again!


  8. As I am re-reading your post this Sunday morning, I am moved again with the encouraging verses you share, and the beautiful prayers you offer. This thought conveys so well where any of our hope comes from: “That this heart is knit with the Love of Your heart for You loved me first.” Thank you for sharing God’s Word with us here! –Blessings to you!


  9. Just this morning I was sharing with the Lord about the hard times. I said sometimes it’s hard to hard to do what he desires or for me to stay true to him. I want to run or hide. Then the thought of his love comes to mind, and I ask for his forgiveness and thank him for his faithfulness. Your blog was perfect. Thank you Linda.


  10. Beautiful inspiration from you, Linda, and especially from God’s word. You’ve given us so many prime examples of how God carries us. Now all we have to do is realize and rest in that truth. Thanks so much!


  11. This is so beautiful, Linda. Such good reminders of His faithfulness, tender mercy and kindness. And I love the prayers. Each of us struggles at different times, don’t we? I was just reflecting on that this morning. How we are all prodigals at different times, maybe not outwardly, but whenever we close our hearts in fear or shame. But He keeps pursuing us, doesn’t He? And cannot wait to take us in His arms.


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