Why, oh Why?
A bruised reed He will not break,
And smoking flax He will not quench;
He will bring forth justice for truth. Isaiah 42:3 (+ Matthew 12:20)
He will tend His flock like a shepherd;
He will gather the lambs in His arms;
He will carry them in His bosom,
and gently lead those that are with young. Isaiah 40:11
He gives power to the faint,
and to him who has no might he increases strength. Isaiah 40:21
Jesus cares about me. He loves me more than I can even fathom. He does not break me. He gathers me into His arms. He leads me into the way I should go. He gives me strength and power.
YET…I doubt…I worry…I fear…I mistrust. WHY? Why do I doubt Him? Why do I question whether He will provide for me? Why do I lack the trust to know that He is always…ALWAYS…with me? WHY?
As a father shows compassion to his children,
so the LORD shows compassion to those who fear Him. Psalm 103:13
He heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3
“For I will satisfy the weary soul, and every languishing soul I will replenish.” Jeremiah 31:25
He heals me and rains compassion upon me. He refreshes me.
Over and over again, the Bible tells me that I can place my trust in Him completely. I do not need to feel the scars and holes in His body to know Who He is. I know Jesus gave His all as the most beautiful Gift possible for me, for us all and each. I know this, yet I doubt.
I fall by the wayside and wonder why I feel so alone. Yet, I am not. I am held in the Savior’s arms and know that He will never leave me nor forsake me. He will not drop me on my head or tail.
I will seek the lost, and I will bring back the strayed, and I will bind up the injured, and I will strengthen the weak, and the fat and the strong I will destroy. I will feed them in justice. Ezekiel 34:16
“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28
He gives me rest. He gives me justice. He carries my heavy burdens and looks for me when I am lost. So much Jesus does for me. He cares for me.
I seek Your forgiveness, LORD, for my doubt, my lack of trust, my faithless spine. I am sorry, my LORD. I have fed myself so much self-doubt that I forget just Whose I am. I have allowed my ears to hear lies about myself. I shout to satan to get behind me and he does because You are with me. I want to trust You in Your care for me. Precious Jesus, I love You. May my walk be along the straight and narrow pathway with You…and You alone. Jesus, You prayed for Simon Peter and You have given the Holy Spirit to be my Intercessor. He knows the prayers I want to utter but cannot. He prays for me.
“Simon, Simon, behold, Satan demanded to have you, that he might sift you like wheat, but I have prayed for you that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned again, strengthen your brothers.” Luke 22:31-32
I read the many ways that God cares for me, all of the time, in so many ways, in every kind of way. Where do I read this? In His Word. The Word of God is the pivotal place from which I know. I KNOW that He loves me and cares for me because He tells me through His Word. I KNOW His care because I feel it in my heart. I can see it too. I KNOW it in my head. His Truth speaks volumes to me when I doubt…when I fall…when I mistrust…when I feel alone.
All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness; so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work. 2 Timothy 3:16-17
And we also thank God constantly for this, that when you received the Word of God, which you heard from us, you accepted it not as the word of men but as what it really is, the Word of God, which is at work in you believers. 1 Thessalonians 2:13
LORD, I thank You for loving me so perfectly. I want the hard places in me to soften and know that You are LORD. That this body of mine is Yours and made perfectly. That this mind was woven by Your hands in my mother’s womb and continues to function well. That this heart is knit with the Love of Your heart for You loved me first. That trust, faith, love, hope all come from You. I believe. I truly do know that just in this one heartfelt acknowledgment…belief in You…I am so filled with all of Your gifts. Can I trust and walk in faith? Can I love without conditions and be loved without conditions? Can I be filled with hope?
“It is the LORD who goes before you. He will be with you; He will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” Deuteronomy 31:8
You are my Hope, my Peace, my Love. May the hard and broken parts of me open up to You for Your loving touch, for Your gentle and tough molding so that I know that I am the one You created me to be. I want to be a gift to those I encounter as You were and are for me. For me! You love me and care for me. The Bible tells me so. Thank You. No more whys, LORD. I believe and I trust in You. In the loving Name of Jesus, I pray. Amen.