On Being a Widow
I would call becoming a widow (widower) going through deep waters. AND then God promises to be with me (you) during these deep-water times. Absolutely beautiful and so very reassuring.
WIDOW! A word I have never given much thought to for myself, but the reality is that I am one now. I saw (and sensed) my mother become one when she was only 46 with three girls ages 13, 10, and 7 to raise. But me? I am into this new pathway for a wee bit over one month now at age 70 with no children, no grandchildren. The precious peace that Kenneth and I felt during the last five months has continued to envelop me, keeping me held and gently rocked. I cry and know that God is okay with all of my tears. I know that His plan included this loss as part of my life.
YET…it is not easy. I miss Kenneth so very much. Then there is all the paperwork, changing titles, probating the will and…and…. On top of all that stuff, there are buckets of tears! And not just from the eyes but from this heart. It is hard. Those three words say it best!
Yet, at the same time, I sense the joy of the Lord, His strength, and His love abounding in my life. He is bringing the right people onto my path. He sends me to a church Sunday that rained peace all over me. He is blessing me with the peace that passes ALL understanding. I love Him so. I may not comprehend it all so, but I certainly will not turn any of this away for it is my journey.
My soul waits in silence for God only;
From Him is my Salvation. He only is my Rock and my Salvation,
My Stronghold; I shall not be greatly shaken. Psalm 62:1-2
Behold, God is my Helper;
The Lord is the Sustainer of my soul. Psalm 54:4
To You, O my Strength, I will sing praises;
For God is my Defense,
My God of mercy. Psalm 59:17
But as for me, the nearness of God is my good;
I have made the Lord GOD my Refuge,
That I may tell of all Your works.
“Behold, God is my Salvation;
I will trust, and will not be afraid;
for the LORD GOD is my Strength and my Song,
and He has become my Salvation.” Isaiah 12:2
Oh, how these verses tell Who God is to me…He is all of this and so much more.
The LORD will tear down the house of the proud,
But He will establish the boundary of the widow. Psalm 15:25
a widow; also a desolate place:—desolate house (palace)
A widow is most often described as a woman who has lost her husband by death and has not remarried.
The LORD watches over the sojourners;
He upholds the widow and the fatherless,
but the way of the wicked He brings to ruin. Psalm 146:9
“Leave your fatherless children,
I will preserve them alive;
And let your widows trust in Me.”
God cares about me, about us. He did before I became a widow and He still does. Praise You, Father. Praise You.
Learn to do good;
Reprove the ruthless,
Defend the orphan,
Plead for the widow. Isaiah 1:17
In Matthew Henry’s Commentary on Isaiah 1: Seek opportunities of doing good: Relieve the oppressed, those whom you yourselves have oppressed; ease them of their burdens. You, that have power in your hands, use it for the relief of those whom others do oppress, for that is your business. Avenge those that suffer wrong, in a special manner concerning yourselves for the fatherless and the widow, whom, because they are weak and helpless, proud men trample upon and abuse;…. Speak for those that know not how to speak for themselves and that have not wherewithal to gratify you for your kindness.
Pure and undefiled religion in the sight of our God and Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their distress, and to keep oneself unstained by the world. James 1:27
I do not consider myself weak. I can stand up for myself…sometimes. I can be gullible…sometimes. Right now, as a one-month-old baby in this new widowhood, I am vulnerable. I know that because it is hard. I have just lost my dear Kenneth, my husband of 25 years, this man who loved me as unconditionally as any human being can. He cared for and about me like no one else. So I truly am vulnerable and must look to my Lord. Focusing my eyes and the eyes of my heart upon Jesus is what I am doing.
When you reap your harvest in your field and have forgotten a sheaf in the field, you shall not go back to get it; it shall be for the alien, for the orphan, and for the widow, in order that the LORD your God may bless you in all the work of your hands. When you beat your olive tree, you shall not go over the boughs again; it shall be for the alien, for the orphan, and for the widow. When you gather the grapes of your vineyard, you shall not go over it again; it shall be for the alien, for the orphan, and for the widow. Deuteronomy 24:19-21
God planned for widowhood. He knew and still knows what needs to happen for them. I think of the many widows and orphans in the world today with so many wars and such violence occurring all around this globe. I do not consider myself one of those precious women or those innocent children. I have so much more than they do, it seems. I have a roof over my head and know that I have a meal. Many of those widows are so strong in the midst of their huge struggles. God knows each of our needs. He knows from whence we came and where we are headed.
Honor widows who are widows indeed; but if any widow has children or grandchildren, they must first learn to practice piety in regard to their own family and to make some return to their parents; for this is acceptable in the sight of God. Now she who is a widow indeed and who has been left alone, has fixed her hope on God and continues in entreaties and prayers night and day. But she who gives herself to wanton pleasure is dead even while she lives. 1 Timothy 5:3-6
She sets her hope on God. Oh, how I desire that for myself. I pray, Father, that I walk the path that You have chosen for me, a straight and narrow path. I rejoice that I have You to trust, to hope in, to love and to cherish. Oh, I am so very grateful. I have no parents alive now and have no children. I come to You for You are my Redeemer. Guide me each day, reminding me Whose I am. Be with those widows and orphans in Africa, Syria, Iran, Iraq, Afghanistan, and so many other areas of this world. Provide for each one in ways that will direct their eyes to You.
After you have suffered for a little while, the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself perfect, confirm, strengthen and establish you. 1 Peter 5:10
Father God, I praise You even in the midst of my sorrow. I was so very blessed to have Kenneth for 25 years, yet I miss him so. I know that he is free from the body that was decaying. I know he is with You. I know those things in my head, but my heart still is filled with pain and sorrow. And this heart is also filled with joy because You are my Husband. You are the One I trust. You are my Hope and my All, Lord. Oh, how very blessed I am. I thank You for being willing to perfect, to confirm, to strengthen and to establish me as I grow in You for the rest of my years. The strength I have is because You are my Strength. You are my Shield and Protector. You are my Peace, my Jehovah-Shalom, my Healer, Jehovah-Rapha, my Provider, Jehovah-Jireh, my Shepherd, Jehovah-Raah. Thank You for being my All. I am eternally grateful to the One Who is Present, my Jehovah-Shammah. In the Name of Christ, I pray. Amen.