Being a New Widow this Christmas
But Mary treasured up all these things, pondering them in her heart. Luke 2:19
“to throw together, confer,” etc., has the meaning “to ponder,” i.e., “to put one thing with another in considering circumstances,” as in Luke 2:19
Other definitions of the word, pondering, in other Bible verses are: to combine, i.e. (in speaking) to converse, consult, dispute, (mentally) to consider, (by implication) to aid, (personally) to join, attack:—confer, encounter, help, make, meet with, ponder.
But Mary was treasuring up all these things in her heart and meditating on them. CSB
…but Mary kept all these things in her heart and thought about them often. NLT
…and Mary was preserving all these things, pondering in her heart;… YLT
As they listened to Simeon speak of their child…
And His father and His mother marveled at what was said about Him. Luke 2:33
And seeing their 12 year old child sitting with three teachers, listening to them and asking question…
And He went down with them and came to Nazareth and was submissive to them. And His mother treasured up all these things in her heart. Luke 2:51
To be given these words would make one think about the future of this child:
And Simeon blessed them and said to Mary His mother, “Behold, this child is appointed for the fall and rising of many in Israel, and for a sign that is opposed (and a sword will pierce through your own soul also), so that thoughts from many hearts may be revealed.” Luke 2:34-35
Thirty-three years later, Mary stood near the Cross watching her son. Before Jesus took His final breaths, He made sure Mary, His mother, would be cared for by John. We do not know when nor how Joseph died, but he has not been written of in the Bible since Jesus was twelve and he is not around when Jesus is teaching. So Mary is, most likely, a widow.
…but standing by the cross of Jesus were His mother and His mother’s sister, Mary the wife of Clopas, and Mary Magdalene. When Jesus saw His mother and the disciple whom He loved standing nearby, He said to His mother, “Woman, behold, your son!” John 19:25-26
As I have walked through this Christmas as a widow, I have found my mind and heart wondering and pondering hard things. I cannot imagine Mary watching her son hanging on the Cross. Yet, I am making note of Mary’s ways when Jesus was born, when he was growing up, as well as when Jesus was 33 years old and Mary being a widow (in all probability).
There is a calmness about the way she ponders and treasures and listens. I desire that calmness about me too. Then God provided for Mary through John. I must say that this season of my life has far more peace and tranquility than it does fear. This first Christmas season without Kenneth has been very difficult…hard. Yet the Lord has been with me all of the way, and has provided for me all the way. It is in the arms of Jesus that I want to be for He comforts me and loves me and will until I am in His heavenly arms and then through eternity. Hallelujah!!
Whoever is wise, let him understand these things;
whoever is discerning, let him know them;
for the ways of the LORD are right,
and the upright walk in them,
but transgressors stumble in them. Hosea 14:9
Father, I thank You from the deepest place in my heart for all You do for me each and every day. I thank You for loving me. Thank You for blessing me with a loving and kind husband in Kenneth. I am so grateful for 25 years with him. I am so in love with him and cannot help but cry tears of sorrow alongside tears of joy for being blessed by Kenneth himself and then by the beautiful marriage we shared. I thank You, Abba, for walking with me through this difficult first Christmas season as a widow. I believe you are going to walk with me for always. You are such a loving God. I want to honor You in who I am, how I behave, and the words coming from my mouth as well as the words of my heart. I want You to be glorified in the way I represent You. I desire to walk the steps that You have assigned for me. You gave a wide place for my steps under me, and my feet did not slip. Psalm 18:36. I praise You and pray in the Name of Jesus, Your Son, born so that He could die for me. Amen.
photo: origin unknown
painting: by Arent de Gelder, 1645 – 1727, (also: Aert de Gelder); Dutch painter.
YouTube: Voctave performs with original songwriter Mark Lowry “Mary, Did You Know;” arranged by Jamey Ray: https://youtu.be/uaRpeMT1tjQ