Decrease – One Word 2021

“Decreasing” has NOT been what I have been doing this month. I seem to be “increasing” and barely recognizing that Christ is in my life lately. Definitely NOT the way I anticipated I would be headed almost half way through 2021. My growth in Christ is backwards.

I have been seriously pondering a major change in my life in the very near future. I have been praying. I have been reading God’s Word. I have been quiet before Him. Or so I thought.

But amidst the ways God wants me to go, I have been researching the change, dealing with banks, looking into options, sorting through things. Doing STUFF! All of the stuff I do before making a change. So when Lisa (@ Lisa Notes) posted that the 21st of May was coming up, time to link up our One Word 2021, I had not even thought about my One Word. Not even once! So today is the 22nd of May and I am typing these words of how my month has certainly looked to God while I have ignored this whole desire which I had purposed from the beginning of this year.

“He must increase, but I must decrease.” John 3:30

Today, the 22nd of May, is the day I married Kenneth 28 years ago. He went to be with the Lord almost three years ago on June 7, 2018. We had just celebrated our 25th anniversary as he was dying from cancer. We knew his death was imminent and very soon, by his condition. We just did not know the exact date and time, of course. Only God knows those facts. The doctors had originally given him 7-10 days in mid-January, 2018. God had blessed us with these months instead of days, for which we were so grateful. We felt that God knew we needed this time together. Kenneth helped me prepare to be living alone…how I needed to care for our house, what tools I needed to keep, and which ones I should sell on eBay, which ones were to garage sale. He was so fine to prepare me like that. We prayed together and we shared spiritual Truths together. Oh, the time was so sweet. I am ever grateful. At this moment, my eyes have welled up with God’s little wet blessings that go into a bottle in Heaven. I am humbled by this day, these memories and my sweet Kenneth. I miss him so. So very much!

And these memories draw me back to the One Who saved me. I know that one day I shall see my Lord and dear Kenneth for we both know our Jesus the Christ. And He is the One to increase…not me! Thank You.

May His name endure forever,
His fame continue as long as the sun!
May people be blessed in Him,
all nations call Him blessed!

Blessed be the LORD, the God of Israel,
who alone does wondrous things.

Blessed be His glorious Name forever;
may the whole earth be filled with His glory!
Amen and Amen!
Psalm 72: 17-19

I seek to be found with humility today. He is my Lord and my Lord forever.

Of the increase of His government and of peace
there will be no end,
on the throne of David and over His kingdom,
to establish it and to uphold it
with justice and with righteousness
from this time forth and forevermore.
The zeal of the LORD of hosts will do this.
Isaiah 9:7

I seek to be on my knees praising God in all His glory and releasing all of this STUFF that it would only be minutiae for me while God handles it as I obey Him.

He put another parable before them, saying, “The kingdom of heaven is like a grain of mustard seed that a man took and sowed in his field. It is the smallest of all seeds, but when it has grown it is larger than all the garden plants and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air come and make nests in its branches.” Matthew 13:31-32

I know that You, Lord, are handling it all, only that I let You. May I be as small as the mustard seed and may Who You are in me show to be that tree. May I be so tiny and You be just so vast, Christ.

Lord Jesus, I seek Your forgiveness in trying to handle things myself. You have allowed things to go differently that I had “planned” or had “hoped.” You are showing me this day that You have this in Your hands. You also have me in Your gentle and yet strong arms. You reminded me of my beautiful marriage with Kenneth and how we sought to depend upon You in so very much. Thank You, Lord. You are guide me. You know my heart. Thank You for Donna’s words last night on the phone, especially her sweet words at the end, that I will entrust my plans, my life to You. Thank You for caring about her and drawing her back to be near You. I am ever grateful for Your Love. I lay this whole change at Your feet, my Christ. I want to be obedient to Your call upon my life. If I am to change, You will make it so and if not, You will make it so! You love me no matter what I do for which I am so thankful. May I continue to learn to decrease so that You increase. I desire others to see You in me and not me in me. In the Beautiful and Increasing Name of Jesus, I pray. Amen.

John 3:30: photo/graphic @ Pinterest

Psalm 72:19: photo/graphics @ Pinterest

Isaiah 9:7: photo/graphic @ Knowing Jesus

Mustard Seed on fingertip: “page not found” for photo

13 thoughts on “Decrease – One Word 2021

  1. Thank you for sharing your beautiful heart, Linda. I’m thankful for the precious time you had with your husband, Kenneth. I grieve with you that you have lost his presence by your side, and pray that you will continue to experience God’s comforting arms about you.

    Praying with you in agreement for wisdom and understanding, insight and counsel regarding future changes. May His peace guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.
    Lisa

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  2. Oh, Linda! I am so sorry for your loss. How gracious of God to give you that extra time with your sweetheart. May the Holy Spirit draw near and comfort you when you need comforting and give you clarity when you need clarity.

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  3. Joanne Viola

    Linda, this is such a precious and vulnerable post. I cannot imagine how difficult navigating forward must be. Oh the faithfulness of our God and the sweetness of Kenneth to prepare you for these days. Praying this afternoon for the Lord to guide you in the days ahead. Blessings, and a hug!

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  4. Oh Dear Linda, your words brought those “little wet blessings” dripping from my eyes tonight too. You are in my prayers so much during this time of seeking the Lord, and missing your dear Kenneth. I join you in praying that HE will increase even as He asks us to decrease. There is a joy in that decreasing, and I long to find more of that blessing.

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  5. jerralea

    I found your words, “May I be so tiny and You be just so vast, Christ.” so touching! This should be the prayer of all His children.

    Praying God guides your every step.

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  6. I can’t believe it has been three whole years and they have passed in what seems a “twinkling” and yet here we are. Kenneth was so very sweet to have prepared you for this time as any husband in love would do. You seem to be doing well my friend and for that, I am so grateful.
    May the Lord continue to restore you and strengthen you day by day as you spend time with Him.

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  7. God is so sweet in how He reminds us of His Presence with us through every stage of life. It’s such a comfort knowing He has gone ahead of us in every step we are about to take, making our path straight. Your memories of that sweet time with Kenneth and how God cared so tenderly for you are so beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

    This song has so been on my heart and I pray it blesses you too as you seek to follow God’s will:

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