Do You Want to Go Away As Well?

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So Jesus said to them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink His blood, you have no life in you.  Whoever feeds on My flesh and drinks My blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day.  For My flesh is true food, and My blood is true drink.  Whoever feeds on My flesh and drinks My blood abides in Me, and I in him.  As the living Father sent Me, and I live because of the Father, so whoever feeds on Me, he also will live because of Me.  This is the Bread that came down from heaven, not like the bread the fathers ate and died.  Whoever feeds on this Bread will live forever.”  Jesus said these things in the synagogue, as He taught at Capernaum.

When many of His disciples heard it, they said,  “This is a hard saying; who can listen to it?”   But Jesus, knowing in Himself that His disciples were grumbling about this, said to them, “Do you take offense at this?  Then what if you were to see the Son of Man ascending to where He was before?  It is the Spirit Who gives life; the flesh is no help at all.  The words that I have spoken to you are spirit and life.  But there are some of you who do not believe.” (For Jesus knew from the beginning who those were who did not believe, and who it was who would betray Him.) And He said,“This is why I told you that no one can come to Me unless it is granted him by the Father.”

After this many of His disciples turned back and no longer walked with Him. So Jesus said to the Twelve, “Do you want to go away as well?”  John 6:53-67

ὑπάγω

 hypagō

to lead (oneself) under, i.e. withdraw or retire (as if sinking out of sight), literally or figuratively:—depart, get hence, go (a-)way

 

Do I want to go away as well?  Jesus asks me too.  His teachings are hard.  They are sometimes things I don’t understand, maybe don’t want to.  Yet I do believe.  From the definition of this Greek word, I have the choice to walk away, to sink out of sight.  Those five words…to sink out of sight…seem to be what Peter did as shown in God’s Word.  He denied Jesus three times as Jesus prophesied and, each time, he sank a little further away from his Jesus. I do not want to walk away from my LORD.  I do not want to deny Him.  I do not want to sink out of sight, depart, withdraw.  Dependency upon Jesus is life…my life, my devotion, my dedication, and my obedience to the One Who died for me, took away my sins.  No, I don’t want to go away as others have, as others do, as I once did too.

I read these verses and am pierced by such a question. Yes, it is so easily possible to run far and wide with the others. Facing my Savior’s death is facing my own. Yet denying Jesus, turning away, causes me to lose the beauty of the Cross, to lose the ability to kneel before Him willingly, to miss the empty tomb, to not have the burning in my heart as I walk with Him, to lose the joy that comes with trials and piercing questions. Oh, I don’t want to go away from my Jesus.

Simon Peter answered Him, “Lord, to whom shall we go?  You have the words of eternal life, 
and we have believed, and have come to know, that You are the Holy One of God.”  John 6:68-69

Oh, no! L
ORD, I do not want to go away. I am Yours. Your flesh is my true food, my nourishment. Your blood is my true drink, the quencher of my thirst. I am counting the cost by this question and choose to walk with You to the Cross. I was given the word “commit” this year and am committed to You. I am pierced by Your question, but more so by Your death … ’twas for me. I am touched deeply by walking with You and knowing that some turned away from You. I do not want to be double-minded, LORD. Peter understood Your question, yet he said he loves You three times, but had denied You three times as You went to the Cross. You died for him too. Oh, I am sorry when I left You, LORD. I have asked and received Your forgiveness. May I humble myself and seek Your Holy Face, Father. May my whole being be contrite towards You. I love You. I follow You; I abide with You. You are my strength that I may go with You to the Cross, that one meant for me. In my daily journey, You provide the cross for me to carry. I am carrying it with me as I pray. You provide the joy that I can count as I face the trials in this world. Thank You, LORD Jesus. You are my One and Only Savior. In Your Name, I pray. Amen.

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.  Psalm 51:17

All these things My hand has made,

and so all these things came to be,
declares the LORD.
But this is the one to whom I will look:
he who is humble and contrite in spirit
and trembles at My Word.  Isaiah 66:2

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Commit — One Word 2016

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Commit your way to the LORD;
trust in Him, and He will act.  Psalm 37:5

גָּלַל

galal

a primitive root; to roll (literally or figuratively):—commit, remove, roll (away, down, together), seek occasion, trust, wallow

To roll: a reproach being rolled off or removed from someone:

Take away from me scorn and contempt,
for I have kept your testimonies.  Psalm 119:22

To roll:  one’s ways and works rolled onto (committed to, entrusted to) someone (especially God):

Commit your work to the LORD,
and your plans will be established.   Proverbs 16:3

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Then Jesus told His disciples, “If anyone would come after Me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow Me.”  Matthew 16:24

ἀπαρνέομαι

aparneomai

to deny

to affirm that one has no acquaintance or connection with someone

to forget one’s self, lose sight of one’s self and one’s own interests

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Commitment to Jesus Christ is a lifetime commitment, one which requires time, work, and determination.  Commitment also requires faith, trust, hope.

Commitment can build faith and trust, and can develop character.

I made a commitment to Christ Jesus July 17, 1993.  I have left my cross on many-a-path since then, yet have picked it up again and again.  I have not stopped following Jesus, but, when I relinquished my cross those times, I would be singing la-ti-da without a full commitment.  I thought I was denying myself, yet I was denying the fact that I had even dropped my cross.

Commitment feels rather scary.  Yet I know that I am heaven bound because I laid my trust and hope in the One and Only Lord Jesus, the One Who came to this earth to save me, Who died for me, and Who was resurrected for me.  He will return for me one day.

In 1993, I chose to marry my husband and am so very committed to this wonderful man, to our marriage, to our walk with Jesus.  I am not afraid of this earthly marriage.

‘Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and hold fast to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh.’  So they are no longer two but one flesh.  What therefore God has joined together, let not man separate.”  Mark 10:7-9

I am wholly committed to Jesus, following Him as He has called me.   LORD, I will do my best.  I thank You for picking me up when I fall and for loving me when I am wayward.  I am still Yours.   

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?  Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword?  As it is written, “For Your sake we are being killed all the day long; we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.”  No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him Who loved us.  For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.  Romans 8:35-39

“Being killed all the day long….”  Teach me, LORD, Your way in this life.  I am not of this world, but am in it.  I want to be separate.  I want to be the sojourner in this strange land because I am Yours. 

Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows Me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”  John 8:12

Jesus prayed for His own (John 17), committed them/us to His Father:

When Jesus had spoken these words, He lifted up His eyes to heaven, and said, “Father, the hour has come; glorify Your Son that the Son may glorify You, since You have given Him authority over all flesh, to give eternal life to all whom You have given Him. …. “I have manifested Your Name to the people whom You gave Me out of the world. Yours they were, and You gave them to Me, and they have kept Your word.  Now they know that everything that You have given Me is from You.  For I have given them the words that You gave Me, and they have received them and have come to know in truth that I came from You; and they have believed that You sent Me.  I am praying for them. …. I do not ask that You take them out of the world, but that You keep them from the evil one.  They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world.  Sanctify them in the truth; Your word is truth.  …. O righteous Father, even though the world does not know You, I know You, and these know that You have sent Me. I made known to them Your Name, and I will continue to make it known, that the love with which You have loved Me may be in them, and I in them.”

I want to memorize all of this prayer this year and know the very love that Jesus has for me.  I want to know it deeply.  I want to delve into The Word, Jesus Christ, to know Him more and more.  I am recommitting my life, Jesus, to You.  My life is Yours.  I am Your sheep. You are my Shepherd.  I am Your child.  You are my Father, my Abba Father.  I want to be obedient to You.  I am wholly Yours.  Guide my every step.  Please hold me near.  Forgive me when I stray.  In Your Name, I pray.  Amen. 

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31 Days of God-Woven Moments – October 21

 

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As I write this month about God-woven moments in and through my tapestry of life, I want to spend this day weaving my 2014 word, “Honor” into this piece of art.  I chose to ponder “honor” this year for I want to remember that God is the Head and I am part of the body, His church.

And not holding the Head, from which all the body by joints and bands having nourishment ministered, and knit together, increaseth with the increase of God.  Colossians 2:19

I am nourished by God with His Living Waters and Bread of Life.  Jesus is my Redeemer.  God knit me together and knows me.  I grow as I spend time in His Word, feeding upon His daily food for my soul.  I dwell in the stillness of His love and grow to be more and more like Christ.  Christ is my focus.  I am honored to know that I am His, part of His church, His Bride.  I honor Him and desire to honor Him in all I do in this world.  I honor Him in all that I am before man.

May I be an image of Christ before all those who do not know Him, a guide for those who do but are wavering right now.  May my voice be honoring in all that I say, LORD.  I desire much.  Through You, and only You, can I be strengthened to do any of this.  You are my Strength.  I am blessed to honor You in the Name of Jesus.  Amen.  

 

To catch up on the previous days of this 31 day challenge, you can find them listed here.

One Word ~ Still

From OneWord365, January-2012,

“One word can change everything.

….Choose just one word.

One word that sums up who you want to be or how you want to live or what you want to achieve by the end of 2012.

….

 “But since we are halfway there, let’s check in with each other for a One Word 365 update.”

“If you haven’t chosen a word for yourself yet, it’s not too late. It’s never too late to choose to live each day with intentionality and focus. So choose a word, blog about it, and dive right in with us.”

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So here I am…

I actually did choose a word in December, 2011, for this year of 2012, but never knew about this “One Word 365” so am joining this conversation in July-2012:  My word is still.

   Be angry, and do not sin. Meditate within your heart on your bed, and be still.  Selah  Psalm 4:4  NKJV

LORD, please take all that I am this day and hold me until I become still, quiet, calm in Your arms.  May my heartbeat be in rhythm with Yours.  May I slow to the pace of Jesus, my LORD.  Love me into stillness.  Caress me still.  Surround me with Your Stillness.  Open me to be still in You.  Amen. 

This year of 2012, I want to slow down, to smell the Texas Mountain Laurel.  I want peace; I want to stand still so God can show me His creation, His beauty, His lessons.  I desire the calm so that I can contemplate all that He has done in this world, and what I might do for Him in this world (and all that I do in the names of pride and selfishness so I can turn from that, repent, change).  I want the moments to stroll by the eyes of my heart and give Him the glory each day.  A morning appointment with Him will direct me to His path for the day.  For any of this to happen, I must be still, breathing in His breathe for life in me, His life in me.  I can and I shall be still for I love Him so and desire to walk with Him, be still for Him, be loved by Him.  I came to Christ by faith and through that door, I entered His rest.

  For the one who has entered His rest has himself also rested from his works, as God did from His.  Hebrews 4:10 NASB

Entering His rest requires some steps on my part…obedience and faith.  I pray for a Sabbath Rest and feel a stillness, am brought to a standing still, a peaceful calm, a quiet place.  I can slow down, be still in an earthly sort of way… and know my God.

    “Be still, and know that I am God.
        I will be exalted among the nations,
        I will be exalted in the earth!”
(Psalm 46:10 ESV)

I have wanted to slow down from concern and worry over my mother, my 98 year old mother in the nursing home.  I want to enjoy each moment I have with her from now on.  That happens more often than not these days.  I love my time with her on most days.  We may spend the time talking, chattering.  We may watch a Cubs game together.  We may not be communicating because Mama is sleeping but I sit in her recliner and watch her, pray over her, journal of things said before, of thoughts crossing my mind that moment.  I may just be there in the room with her.  Night’s like tonight where Mama was extremely hyperactive, talkative, glad to see me, never allowed a moment of silence to occur between us, still just does not happen unless I can allow her to be her and allow me to be in the moments as they roll by.  Sometimes, I succeed; other times, I just do not.  Tonight was a hard night for “still”.  Activity, mind-boggling words and moods, a visitor of hyperactivity, talk, and bias…I was able to let it all float through and by, then drift away giving me at least partial “still”, more so after I left the nursing home!  I could absorb His still.

Being still may take me to a green chair in our spare bedroom where I read God’s Word and soak in a bit more than when I am not still and trying to read the Bible.  I have found that there is a difference between reading in God’s stillness and trying to read.

Being still may take my mind to a quiet stream in the mountains.  I see God’s creation and rejoice as I can hear the ripple of the water, or feel the cool breeze rushing through my hair.  Still soothes me.  I have lived in the place of motion where I notice nothing, hear nothing, feel nothing.  I do not want to live there anymore.  I want still so that I may feel, hear, see, touch, contemplate, adore, rejoice, glorify God, and adore Him.  What better place than this still place, this resting point, this quiet order.

I have had three surgeries during the past year.  My body has been through a lot of stress.  My mind has been on Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride.  Stillness is where I need to be as the healing process continues.  Even though I chose this word in December, and had two surgeries ahead of me, one unknown, God knew what I would need in the days and months ahead.  Stillness has ebbed and flowed these months as pain and struggle made it difficult to even remember that I wanted to be still this year, to sit in the stillness of God, in His cloud.  Yet, He always meets me, waits for me when I get distracted and forget.  He is so wonderful and His Still is so beautiful in all.  They are a calming balm to me.

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Just as Jesus rebuked the wind and calmed the sea, peace is amidst the wild when the LORD is there in the midst.  That is what I am learning through this “still” year.  Keeping my whole self focused upon Jesus and not upon the situation, the circumstance, the pain, the noise.  I am learning to allow myself to know the peace of the Lord, the stillness of God.

And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm.  Mark 4:39

 


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Peace, Be Still graphic:  John Bell, July, 1999; http://www.jrbell.com; http://www.heartlight.org