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Do You Want to Go Away As Well?

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So Jesus said to them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink His blood, you have no life in you.  Whoever feeds on My flesh and drinks My blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day.  For My flesh is true food, and My blood is true drink.  Whoever feeds on My flesh and drinks My blood abides in Me, and I in him.  As the living Father sent Me, and I live because of the Father, so whoever feeds on Me, he also will live because of Me.  This is the Bread that came down from heaven, not like the bread the fathers ate and died.  Whoever feeds on this Bread will live forever.”  Jesus said these things in the synagogue, as He taught at Capernaum.

When many of His disciples heard it, they said,  “This is a hard saying; who can listen to it?”   But Jesus, knowing in Himself that His disciples were grumbling about this, said to them, “Do you take offense at this?  Then what if you were to see the Son of Man ascending to where He was before?  It is the Spirit Who gives life; the flesh is no help at all.  The words that I have spoken to you are spirit and life.  But there are some of you who do not believe.” (For Jesus knew from the beginning who those were who did not believe, and who it was who would betray Him.) And He said,“This is why I told you that no one can come to Me unless it is granted him by the Father.”

After this many of His disciples turned back and no longer walked with Him. So Jesus said to the Twelve, “Do you want to go away as well?”  John 6:53-67

ὑπάγω

 hypagō

to lead (oneself) under, i.e. withdraw or retire (as if sinking out of sight), literally or figuratively:—depart, get hence, go (a-)way

 

Do I want to go away as well?  Jesus asks me too.  His teachings are hard.  They are sometimes things I don’t understand, maybe don’t want to.  Yet I do believe.  From the definition of this Greek word, I have the choice to walk away, to sink out of sight.  Those five words…to sink out of sight…seem to be what Peter did as shown in God’s Word.  He denied Jesus three times as Jesus prophesied and, each time, he sank a little further away from his Jesus. I do not want to walk away from my LORD.  I do not want to deny Him.  I do not want to sink out of sight, depart, withdraw.  Dependency upon Jesus is life…my life, my devotion, my dedication, and my obedience to the One Who died for me, took away my sins.  No, I don’t want to go away as others have, as others do, as I once did too.

I read these verses and am pierced by such a question. Yes, it is so easily possible to run far and wide with the others. Facing my Savior’s death is facing my own. Yet denying Jesus, turning away, causes me to lose the beauty of the Cross, to lose the ability to kneel before Him willingly, to miss the empty tomb, to not have the burning in my heart as I walk with Him, to lose the joy that comes with trials and piercing questions. Oh, I don’t want to go away from my Jesus.

Simon Peter answered Him, “Lord, to whom shall we go?  You have the words of eternal life, 
and we have believed, and have come to know, that You are the Holy One of God.”  John 6:68-69

Oh, no! L
ORD, I do not want to go away. I am Yours. Your flesh is my true food, my nourishment. Your blood is my true drink, the quencher of my thirst. I am counting the cost by this question and choose to walk with You to the Cross. I was given the word “commit” this year and am committed to You. I am pierced by Your question, but more so by Your death … ’twas for me. I am touched deeply by walking with You and knowing that some turned away from You. I do not want to be double-minded, LORD. Peter understood Your question, yet he said he loves You three times, but had denied You three times as You went to the Cross. You died for him too. Oh, I am sorry when I left You, LORD. I have asked and received Your forgiveness. May I humble myself and seek Your Holy Face, Father. May my whole being be contrite towards You. I love You. I follow You; I abide with You. You are my strength that I may go with You to the Cross, that one meant for me. In my daily journey, You provide the cross for me to carry. I am carrying it with me as I pray. You provide the joy that I can count as I face the trials in this world. Thank You, LORD Jesus. You are my One and Only Savior. In Your Name, I pray. Amen.

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.  Psalm 51:17

All these things My hand has made,

and so all these things came to be,
declares the LORD.
But this is the one to whom I will look:
he who is humble and contrite in spirit
and trembles at My Word.  Isaiah 66:2

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A Contrite Heart

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The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit,
A broken and a contrite heart—
These, O God, You will not despise.  Psalm 51:17  NKJV

My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise.  NIV

The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit.
You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God.  NLT

The first daisy looks so disheveled.  I, too, can look like that on the outside.  Something felt broken for me.  I did not always know just what, but God knows everything about me.  He always wraps His arms around me and loves me despite my appearance.  He always will when I ask.  He loves me as I am.

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Sometimes, I can look like this daisy on the outside yet feel like the first one on the inside.  I am all torn up and falling apart because of sin.  I don’t have answers to my questions and I don’t sit with the LORD long enough to hear His answers.  I am all jumbled up yet look perfectly all together (well, sort of) from the outside.   God knows this too!

Coming to Him with a contrite spirit, He holds me, forgives me, loves me as only He can.

Contrite:  feeling or expressing remorse or penitence; affected by guilt

דַּכָּא

dakka’

very much crushed, very small, as dust

rejected, cast down

The LORD is near to those who have a broken heart,
And saves such as have a contrite spirit.  Psalm 34:18

He is near to us and saves us when we are broken.

For thus says the high and exalted One
Who lives forever, whose name is Holy,
“I dwell on a high and holy place,
And also with the contrite and lowly of spirit
In order to revive the spirit of the lowly
And to revive the heart of the contrite.  Isaiah 57:15

He dwells with us when we are crushed and at our lowest point.

“For My hand made all these things,
Thus all these things came into being,” declares the LORD.
“But to this one I will look,
To him who is humble and contrite of spirit, and who trembles at My word.  Isaiah 66:2

He looks to us when we are but dust.

You return man to dust
and say, “Return, O children of man!”  Psalm 90:3

He calls to us in the depth of our sin, in our guilt, in our depravity.

Praising You, Father that You accept me broken and with a crushed, contrite heart.  How easily I can slip into feeling so far away from You that I can’t imagine that You would actually be so close to me with open arms, waiting for Your daughter to fall into Your loving arms.  You pull me to You and I know Your love.  All crumpled up and weary, You still love me and care about me, inside and outside.  Praise You, Abba Father.  I love You so.