From OneWord365, January-2012,
“One word can change everything.
….Choose just one word.
One word that sums up who you want to be or how you want to live or what you want to achieve by the end of 2012.
“But since we are halfway there, let’s check in with each other for a One Word 365 update.”
“If you haven’t chosen a word for yourself yet, it’s not too late. It’s never too late to choose to live each day with intentionality and focus. So choose a word, blog about it, and dive right in with us.”
So here I am…
I actually did choose a word in December, 2011, for this year of 2012, but never knew about this “One Word 365” so am joining this conversation in July-2012: My word is still.
Be angry, and do not sin. Meditate within your heart on your bed, and be still. Selah Psalm 4:4 NKJV
LORD, please take all that I am this day and hold me until I become still, quiet, calm in Your arms. May my heartbeat be in rhythm with Yours. May I slow to the pace of Jesus, my LORD. Love me into stillness. Caress me still. Surround me with Your Stillness. Open me to be still in You. Amen.
This year of 2012, I want to slow down, to smell the Texas Mountain Laurel. I want peace; I want to stand still so God can show me His creation, His beauty, His lessons. I desire the calm so that I can contemplate all that He has done in this world, and what I might do for Him in this world (and all that I do in the names of pride and selfishness so I can turn from that, repent, change). I want the moments to stroll by the eyes of my heart and give Him the glory each day. A morning appointment with Him will direct me to His path for the day. For any of this to happen, I must be still, breathing in His breathe for life in me, His life in me. I can and I shall be still for I love Him so and desire to walk with Him, be still for Him, be loved by Him. I came to Christ by faith and through that door, I entered His rest.
For the one who has entered His rest has himself also rested from his works, as God did from His. Hebrews 4:10 NASB
Entering His rest requires some steps on my part…obedience and faith. I pray for a Sabbath Rest and feel a stillness, am brought to a standing still, a peaceful calm, a quiet place. I can slow down, be still in an earthly sort of way… and know my God.
“Be still, and know that I am God.
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!”
(Psalm 46:10 ESV)
I have wanted to slow down from concern and worry over my mother, my 98 year old mother in the nursing home. I want to enjoy each moment I have with her from now on. That happens more often than not these days. I love my time with her on most days. We may spend the time talking, chattering. We may watch a Cubs game together. We may not be communicating because Mama is sleeping but I sit in her recliner and watch her, pray over her, journal of things said before, of thoughts crossing my mind that moment. I may just be there in the room with her. Night’s like tonight where Mama was extremely hyperactive, talkative, glad to see me, never allowed a moment of silence to occur between us, still just does not happen unless I can allow her to be her and allow me to be in the moments as they roll by. Sometimes, I succeed; other times, I just do not. Tonight was a hard night for “still”. Activity, mind-boggling words and moods, a visitor of hyperactivity, talk, and bias…I was able to let it all float through and by, then drift away giving me at least partial “still”, more so after I left the nursing home! I could absorb His still.
Being still may take me to a green chair in our spare bedroom where I read God’s Word and soak in a bit more than when I am not still and trying to read the Bible. I have found that there is a difference between reading in God’s stillness and trying to read.
Being still may take my mind to a quiet stream in the mountains. I see God’s creation and rejoice as I can hear the ripple of the water, or feel the cool breeze rushing through my hair. Still soothes me. I have lived in the place of motion where I notice nothing, hear nothing, feel nothing. I do not want to live there anymore. I want still so that I may feel, hear, see, touch, contemplate, adore, rejoice, glorify God, and adore Him. What better place than this still place, this resting point, this quiet order.
I have had three surgeries during the past year. My body has been through a lot of stress. My mind has been on Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride. Stillness is where I need to be as the healing process continues. Even though I chose this word in December, and had two surgeries ahead of me, one unknown, God knew what I would need in the days and months ahead. Stillness has ebbed and flowed these months as pain and struggle made it difficult to even remember that I wanted to be still this year, to sit in the stillness of God, in His cloud. Yet, He always meets me, waits for me when I get distracted and forget. He is so wonderful and His Still is so beautiful in all. They are a calming balm to me.
Just as Jesus rebuked the wind and calmed the sea, peace is amidst the wild when the LORD is there in the midst. That is what I am learning through this “still” year. Keeping my whole self focused upon Jesus and not upon the situation, the circumstance, the pain, the noise. I am learning to allow myself to know the peace of the Lord, the stillness of God.
And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. Mark 4:39
Johnny Jump-Ups photo: KitKat @ DeviantArt Link: http://fav.me/d277000 http://kitkat878.deviantart.com/art/Johnny-Jump-Up-133016256
Peace, Be Still graphic: John Bell, July, 1999; http://www.jrbell.com; http://www.heartlight.org